This blog post is about what I need to release, but I was delayed in writing it by two separate incidents in my street within a few feet of my front door. The first incident occurred during the 30 minutes we’d been out of the house all evening picking up fish and chips for dinner. Yes it was delicious, thanks for asking. The police asked if we’d seen anything which we hadn’t, but we do have outdoor cameras.

It appears my neighbour two doors down (who already wears a monitoring ankle bracelet) got into an argument with his girlfriend. As she tried to walk away he ran after her kicking her in the knee and knocking her to the ground. What a nice guy to be living near to. He’s been taken away by police but i doubt he’ll be gone long.

Then, while my husband was still extracting the video footage from the first incident I heard shouting from outside. The man was shouting he was going to die. It transpired that the man had stabbed himself in the leg, for what reason I do not know. Cue the police and a passerby trying to patch him up, his girlfriend nearby in shock, and him sobbing as he apologised to her and then called his dad begging him to come to the scene.

I have lived in my home for more than ten years and not had one incident like this before let alone two! Releasing things that need to be released is a good thing but I don’t think the authorities need to release either of those gentlemen. The second for his own safety, and the first for everyone else’s.

The Spread

I find it interesting and shocking that two traumatic and violent incidents occurred in such a short space of time and almost directly outside my front door. I had already decided this post would be about what I need to release based on my own psychological healing journey and the spread in the book from The Tarot Diagnosis. I think tonight’s incidents demonstrate eloquently what can happen if you can’t process your feelings and release them in a healthy way. Of course not everyone in this situation becomes physically violent, but my stepfather was certainly emotionally abusive and my father turned it inwards and drank himself to death.

I need to process my trauma and deal with what has happened to me so I can release the things I need to release. I need to release them so they no longer have the power to hurt me, hold me back, or sap my energy and confidence. I am very interested to try this spread and see what my spread reveals. Here it is.

Things I Need To Release – My Reading

I used the Creatures Tarot by Sara Kathleen as it’s one of my favourites and just seemed appropriate for this spread. The images are so beautiful and incredibly expressive considering they’re mostly little worm creatures. I also find I get the message from them very easily whereas other decks can be a bit more work. So without further ado, here are the cards I drew.

By Releasing – Strength. Interesting card as it represents my greatest strength and biggest flaw. I always have to be strong. I am the coper. The one with the plan. The person who will always find a way to fix it. I won’t give in to feelings of helplessness or breakdowns or being unable to deal with a situation. I will fix and I will always try to do it alone. I help other and I fix things, if I accept help from others it’s because I have failed.

Now, needless to say this is a pretty toxic mindset and definitely part of my trauma personality. I need to understand that being a strong and resilient person is a good thing but not if it becomes your whole identity. Not if it pushes you to breaking point because you don’t want to ask for help. I need to release this mindset.

I Can Embrace – Four of Swords. Downtime! I can embrace rest, relaxation and restoration. I can I’ve myself time to breathe and process and gradually refill my physical, mental and emotional reserves back up. Let’s face it, life isn’t perfect. There is always going to be something to do, something that needs to be fixed, someone who needs my help and support. If I insist on always taking the fixer role and don’t ask for help in the end I’ll be so burned out I’ll be no good to anyone. I must embrace the Four of Swords energy.

Over To You

Please feel free to add anything you wish in the comments. Do you too have crazy neighbours? Do you have a ton of things you need to release? Alternatively, do you have your own thoughts on my interpretation and like to give me your take. Please feel free to let me know, I appreciate all comments. Please look after yourself this week and thank you for reading xx