C-Moo’s End Of Year Review. Where I’ve been, where I am now and where I’m going
Hi Musers! I know we’re not quite at the end of the year yet but as I plan on taking a (desperately needed) rest over Christmas I thought I’d do it now. I have a whole schedule planned 😃I also hope it may help some of you take stock of your life and maybe get an image of where you’d like it to be. This is not about new year’s resolutions (urgh!) or empowering goals or any of that bs. It’s about getting a sense of the direction you’d like to go in over the next 12 months.
I’m not usually one for inspirational quotes but while rewatching Criminal Minds today one really resonated with me:
You must give up the life you planned in order to have the life that is waiting for you.
Joseph Campbell
I won’t say I’ve ever had any major plans but it occurred to me I may need to let go of my image of myself. The image that I’m not pretty cos I’m fat. The idea of myself as a failure because I was made redundant earlier this year. Especially the concept that I “should” be anything.
My focus needs to be on trying new things and being happy. I have been very unhappy this year. The redundancy, coronavirus, lockdown and hating my job haven’t helped. My depression has been awful and I suspect I’m not the only one. This year has been tough and I can’t wait for the end of year to get here. So here is my list of good, could be better, and must change.
Good
This blog. I love sharing with all of you and I hope that the next year sees me reaching even more people I can help. If you feel in a kind mood a share on social media would be much appreciated 😉
My writing career. It’s not technically a career yet but I’m prepared to work hard til it is.
My marriage. Even after being together for 16 years and married for 6 years of that, I love Mike. He drives me mad sometimes but he is without a doubt the love of my life.
My relationship with my sister. We are so close and she is my best friend.
Could Be Better
My energy. I have chronic fatigue and so I’m always tired. I need to look into a proper sleep schedule and napping less
Money. Things aren’t bad but I want to get rid of the last of my debts and build a nest egg. My experience of redundancy has convinced me I must have one. My second job writing will help.
Must Change
My health. Type 2 diabetes and high blood pressure this year. I suspect both are due to my shocking diet and lack of exercise during lockdown. This must improve.
My happiness. Whatever it takes I won’t be as unhappy next year as I have been this year. This one is a little trickier. Not sure how to improve it. I know that a higher dose of pills isn’t going to do it. Answers on a postcard please…
Reading. It used to be one of my favourite hobbies and I barely do it any more. I suspect it’s another victim of my depression but I want to get back to it. I need to get back to it. There are no good writers who don’t read
That’s my list guys, I’d love it if you popped any of your plans or reflections down in the comments 👇 We could all benefit from some positivity as we end the year and move forward 😃 Merry Christmas musers
Love
CMoo
